>Thursday, July 05, 2007

I am so full of crap, blogging is the only way i can kill my boredom and the only place where i can yak and yak away when my Ed is not around. He still doesn't approve of me blogging because he does not seem to understand the logic behind it.
Have told him endless times that this is just a place for me to keep memories but he still sorts of disapproves.
I need to get my mind focused.
I always wondered how would life be if I did not have my Ed around with me. Would I be where I am today or would I be this happy...
I am yakking yakking away, I am feeling emo I guess.....
Seriously, life has never been the same with Ed around. He brings joy and he really makes me happy. He takes good care of me and he makes me feel protected so much so I feel so dependant and reliant on him. I am always afraid that one day we would not be able to be together anymore. But I hope that it would not come true.
If that very day I was not sent to the hospital, I would not be sitting where I am today.
This is my 2nd chance in life given by Allah and I truly appreciate it.
I guess Ed is also Allah's gift to me and I thank Allah for having him with me.
And I really thank Allah for opening his heart, come three weeks time, he will be done with the basic course in Islam(1).
Since this is my second chance, I guess I have to really take good care of my health and take good care of myself. Recuperating in the hospital was no fun and being sick feeling lifeless was not good either.
I am so emo now... What is wrong with me?

Nadia in Bliss
11:06 PM

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