>Sunday, November 18, 2007
I am about to breakdown with all the problems I am going through...
It seems the more that I try to forget about the problems my family are facing,
the more I get from it.... problems after problems...
My aunt called me...breakdown on the phone & cried
I cried too upon hearing what she said,
Of course, she is my aunt & I have to believe her, don't I??
tell me, what would you do if you were in my position?
I am in doubt of both parties,
I want to believe and trust you both, but tell me,
how when I am in between...
your stories are different, and my mum too is involved...
Of course, I have too believe what my mum tells me too rite...
I brokedown the day before,
I secretly cried myself to sleep...
How else do I go to sleep with all my problems...
Lately I will always wake up in the middle of the night
to just stare into space until I get so tired of everything, I force myself to sleep...
Whats worse, is I have been keeping my thoughts to myself for days,
Not meeting Ed for a week or so already & that makes my life even worse,
exams are in a week or so,
& I am feeling the pressure....
Like how am I to study & concentrate with the problems....
I have this pressure to do well....
But I really cannot....
I cried days and days....
Until I could not take it yesterday,
I begged my brother to sent me to NTU...
At night at 11pm...
& when I saw him I almost cried.....
& I hugged him I cried too...
How I missed him so....
I told him my problems...
& he told me to stay neutral...
meeting him yesterday was the bestest thing that happened to me....
& another happy thing that happened....
Nadya invited me to the blogger nite...
& I am still unsure if I am going...hehe
Most likely...
Cause I so want to see my 2 lovely friends whom I have so longed to see....
& now it's back to studies....
& 2 more weeks of suffering till I can finally enjoy...
Nadia in Bliss
4:08 PM
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